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” He’s got the Whole World in His Hands, He’s got the whole world…closets too.”
I am serving as an intern for a missions organization, called Campus Crusade for Christ in the Seattle area. East and West and South. Seattle and Bellevue and Bremerton.
I’ve given Jesus my world and without uttering one word… I knew He’d do it. I didn’t need to tell him to. My world is Inside out. What’s in my heart is out now. What I once put my trust in Outwardly is now inside (you can ask more about this over coffee or on a cell call) I love Jesus and I love college students. I love partnering with believers, I love being challenged.
Out are my fears too…I never trusted God for a team of supporters to be vital part of my ministry. The last five years, those that have walked life with me, have known that I’ve desparately desired to see youth come to Christ and to be a vessel of His love and grace. So the call to invite others into my life and heart and ….thus the Lord’s ministry…is pure joy and pure vulnerability and pure dependance.
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What’s inside God wants clean. If I’ve met up with you for coffee, you’ve heard me share that God is cleaning my closet. Inside the closet, my soul is housed-hazardly or haplessly, some neat and tidy. The compartments of my soul: what I eat, how I spend my time, how I spend my money, who I love on, who loves on me; these areas Jesus organizes in His way, cuz I want to love Him first. When I open my heart I want others to see the work of the Master setting my shelves up, organizing my bins- May they see there is someone tender and wonderful tending my soul. And he leaves some of my areas messy-and kinda exposed. And to be that raw, some days-when I see my life a bit out of control… So I’ve asked for prayer, and God has called a special team to nurture my heart and intercede for me. You prayer warriers fight for me and I need you.
And honestly, the Lord is always adjusting, re-organizing, taking out, adding into your closet. It’s not a complete work, always in process, with some areas “exploding” other areas, neat and tidy.
And some days, I can only handle so much soul cleaning.
God is patient, is He not? He know’s when it’s time for me to hang the “Out for the Day” sign on my closet. A day like today, it’s nice to check out. To let God do his cleaning alone, His Spirit working, as I have a day “to myself.”
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That’s today. I’ve wanted to take some time to stop the work and take time for my heart to catch up with my life. There is so much yet to do, as I get ready to move in with a roommate, finishing up support development…but I trust God to take care of that while I take some me time.
Oh friends, we are on this journey together and I cannot tell you all the hope and dreams and leaps of faith I have for us!
So starting this Weblog, it’s my invitation to you all to get to know who God is as He reveals Himself in our relationship and also how I can know Him better through you! I am delighted to share this song in my head, that runs like a tape recorder over and over in my heart ‘n head:
”the wonder of it all, is living just to fall, fall more in Love with You (Lord).” Audio Adrenaline.
And how, the Lord, through your prayers and service, will spread this love to the students on campus that Need Him and Need to know this definite and steadfast love.
